so i’m really here..

successfully moved all my things to southern california.

took mom to the airport, to fly home this morning.. bittersweet.

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milwaukee will always hold half of my heart… but this is a new adventure for me.

life is about adventures, you know? 

changing things… turning your world upside down every once in a while, and hoping for the best.

so with my best thoughts in mind.. here I am.. starting a whole new life.

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have you ever felt just so overwhelmed by life? It’s crazy… not in a bad way… not like a panic attack; I don’t feel in a frenzy at all… I’m just overwhelmed.

Things change so quickly… people come into your life, stir it up… create chaos, then exit before you can blink your eyes… 

it’s nearing midnight… then it will be wednesday, I feel like it was just last wednesday, not more then ten minutes ago.   

I’ve never felt so torn before in my life… I have a trillion things to be ecstatic about.. things to look forward too, things to expect, memories to create, and people to meet…

but on the other hand.. there’s a trillion things I will miss about my hometown and milwaukee, both. This is where i’ve grown up, it holds every memory i have.. every friend i’ve ever known, every street i’ve ever driven.. it’s any and everything i’ve ever, ever known.. 

my life is beyond beautiful, exciting, marvelous, and fun… i am giving up seeing my family often, my best friends of years… my home… i’m giving it all up to try something new… i’m…….. excited… nervous, anxious, and distraught…. but i am so, so excited.

adventure is what we live for.

stay alive…. always keep feeling alive.

life is a beautiful, beautiful, beautiful gift… we are only given once.

mistakes to be made, memories to be created, people to love…. there are so many things to look forward too….

and so many memories to hold onto.. my life is so wonderful. I hope everyone realizes sometime, how beautiful everything is… and how capable we are.. of absolutely anything.

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fear is useless.